Yeah, you, got that something, I think you'll understand.

I'm writing this on the off-chance you'll read this, I apologize in advance for my 'mish-mash' of emotions bloggers.

I had to give up another to keep you, but I don't mind, because when I think about it.. It was for the best. It wouldn't of been the same ever again, I would of been scared to break your heart again and you would of been more cautious.

Well.. I moved on and I am quite glad I did because he's perfect, he's kind, funny, gorgeous, amazing. I love his personality, the way he makes little cute noises, I adore his slight accent, his smile is to die for and he makes me feel loved. It's stupid that he doesn't like the way he is because he's just great, he hates his body, I love it, he hates his smile, I love it, he doesn't like himself, I love him. I've been longing for this feeling, to lift me up from sadness and make me whole again, and I just got it. When I fall for someone and they say something cute, some people get goosebumps, some get a tingly feeling, basically I've got the retarded one, my legs go like jelly then go numb, so if I'm standing up, I'm screwed. I got that feeling last night and it's my bodies way of reassuring me I've fallen, it sounds stupid and pathetic but I don't care, because it's me so why should I? Me and him have decided we are gonna be positive because to be honest, our lives haven't been great, so we just thought "Fuck it, lets be happy". The funny thing is we were seeing other people when friends and then shit happened and made us sad again, but now we're close, we're happy. It's weird how our friendship developed into this.. But I find it amazing.