In my life, I love you more.

So.. Christmas has been pretty funky, got a new laptop ect ect. Had a MASSIVE dinner, had a bit to drink ;) You know, the usual.

Luke Harris, thankyou for everything :) It has been nearly two months and I've realised how much I care about you, I mean.. I cared about you as a friend but being your girlfriend has made me see so much more. I really don't wanna lose you my darling, you see you have made me so happy, everything about you just makes me smile. From your cute ways to your ways to make me laugh, just everything is perfect. It truely upsets me to think about losing you because I know what a great person you are and how we've gone just meeting eachother, to friends, to this. It's just unreal <3

proper crimbo selecta'

Aaah, it is christmas tomorrow, I'm rather excited all of a sudden. I wasn't really too excited a while ago but as it's getting closer I'm feeling more christmas-y.

I've had a proper conversation with someone I haven't seen eye to eye with for a while but it's understandable. I am glad we have though :D

I went shopping to tesco at 11 it was rather funny, I didn't even realise I only got out the shop at like 12:30 :L oh well late night shopping is cool.

ROLL ON CHRISTMAS!

Justa short one..

Mocks are over, christmas is here, let the good times roll I guess.. Not quite, I'm so busy trying to get presents and everything, I've also gotta revise for my January exams but I guess I just need to calm down.

On a different subject I love photography.. I mean everyone can take photos but it's if they're unique and beautiful, that's what stands out most. To be honest, I'm not that confident with my photography although it is my career choice, ah well. I'll keep taking pictures anyway.

I love the way you lie..

You know.. I'm trying to build a friendship back up with you because I'm changing and I thought you had too, but obviously not.. You still do those little things that still annoy me. Like ditch one of the people who has been there for you all along to come to me or go to another friend, you're so rude to her it's unbelievable, you wouldn't give her something today like an immature child and when I tried to give it to her, you fucking bit me. How childish. It's making her upset too, I would know because she told me, see actually trusted me and I understand her. You're copying me more now, what are you trying to do? Be me? Because all of a sudden my life seems better than yours? I want independence but every step of the way you're following me. I've also seen that your lies are getting worse.. I would of thought after all these years of you doing it, you'd atleast be good at it?! I wish I could just tell you to go away but I can't I guess I'm a wimp..

So this is christmas, and what have you done?

Oh the wonders of mock exams.. Sitting in a freezing cold sports hall and enduring 1 hour of nothingness. I have so failed my maths exam.. I left out about 5 pages and sat there next to possibly one of the brainiest people in my year, just blankly staring as she covered the page with writing.

BUT, oh well! It's nearly christmas! I'm excited even though I haven't got all my presents yet, just the general season gets me in a happy mood :) and my auntie is out of hospital.. FUCK YEAH.

I don't know why but even though I'm meant to be stressed, I'm kinda not, which is good obviously. :D 18 days till christmas people!

If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see, I will be the light, to guide you.

I just want all my friends to know.. I'm here for them no matter what. I will be there for them rain or shine, the fact that more people are opening up to me makes me feel really good to be honest; finally I feel like a good friend. Thankyou to all my friends, dealing with my crap, supporting me when I put myself into crap and being there for me. I've never had better people surrounding me and I'm so happy with what I have, as long as I have you guys and my boy, I'm set for life.

I'm feeling myself getting closer to friends such as Hannah and Tegan, which is good because I love these guys to bits and to know they can trust me is the best feeling ever :)

I love all you guys, remember that.

"You can count on me like 1, 2, 3, I'll be there, and I know when I need it I can count on you like 4, 3, 2 and you'll be there, cos' that's what friends are supposed to do ♪♬"

it's magic, you know.

I'm absoloutely bricking it for my mocks.. Oh well.

I can feel myself getting closer with old friends, being able to talk to them about anything and feeling like an actual good friend :)

Seeing my Lucas was good today as well.. For some reason when i'm with him I forget everything bad like my exams.. Ah, he's great :) & we played Xbox, arent we cool ;)